Time

Time passes by so fast yet so slow... Don't know what i mean?

Well.. It's fast cause The things you dont want are coming so quickly. PMR, sooner or later SPM. I'm kinda afraid of what the future is gonna hold for me. Where will i be... What will i do..? Will I stay with you forever? Will I be Me? Or will i just fade off.. and be someone.. I dont know. It's mind aching. God has a future for me. But we don't know what it is.. It's just terrifying.
Slow cause you have a quaint feeling that the future might be abit exciting. And what you want comes oh so slowly. Starting a family? Too far ahead but it brings a temporary peace of thought into my mind. How do you live life to the fullest if you're not sure of what life is ahead of you? Just full of worry.

Maybe some of you guys say 'You should just ignore those feelings and live your life to the fullest.' Maybe. But I know that I can't. There are just too many things to worry about. Can I live the silent life of peacefulness with no worries at all? I feel that small bit of assurance. But maybe it's false assurance. See. I'm at it again. Inside me, there is one clear voice giving me an answer that does not make me satisfied with what I feel. It says The Future Is Unpredictable. And that does NOT give me peace.

Now think back again. But this time. Imagine you have the power to control time. You can slow down, rewind, forward, or pause. Sadly, we can't do that. The thought of that brings me peace. And the song on my blog, makes it feel as if time is flowing in the slow mode way. And just listening to these kinda songs bring me a sentimental kinda feeling. But in the end.. This song won't last forever.....